I loved eating sweets and lots of good food on weekends when I was younger since the comfort it brought me was interconnected with something beyond through the numbness it brought. Winter weekends and night trips to Starbucks after eating with games to play. As you can see I'm obsessed with the power of the ordinary that interconnects me to the eternal but I can't feel as much anymore especially out of highschool. They can't bring that comfort as much as they used to because I'm not in the safety of youth anymore. I hate being older than 20, I can't take this. I can't take the pain of almost everything I live for fading. My chances at life are dying as I drown in the endless rejection from the world around me. No money, no where to go, no way out. These are the pictures I had.'